wow...it's been a while. sorry I was in two major hell weeks. I have had 4 exams and 4 papers due in the last two weeks and I went home on the weekends. It was great to be home. I really had fun, ate alot of puppy chow, and got new clothes for spring...and today it's snowing.
Only 16 days more until London. I can't wait. Kelly and I went out last night to celebrate our busy weeks being over and we had a great time. The bars sucked since everyone was home watching basketball but the two of us chatted, went home and played drinking games with the movie 'Old School' until two friends stopped by. One is named Brendo and I have had an on-off crush on him for a few months. Since August really...but he goes to a different school...and so different then my usual type....but there is something about him. And last night I saw him for the first time in months...drunk in sweats and a t-shirt while pigging out on cheeze-its. What an impression I must have made.
Today my dad turns 55! I called him at midnight, we always do that. He doesn't deal with his age gracefully. He would love to be 16 forever and playing basketball, staying up late, and collecting baseball cards. I keep reminding him now he can get a discount on his breakfast and use the senior-citizen parking spaces. He just ignores me. He is going to Mexico with his girlfriend tomorrow. I complained that I don't ever get taken anywhere but Flordia and he referenced London....that quickly shut me up. Can't wait for spring break...can't wait. Me, Kelly, Nancy, and Anne....having the best time ever!
I am also looking forward to the basketball this weekend. You know spring has come when the NCAA tourneys are happening. Everyone is shocked Duke lost, I'm not. They didn't play well this year. At all.
And not only is tomorrow St. Patty's Day but my friend band, We the Living, are releasing their new album. Everyone should pick in up online or at record stores. www.myspace.com/wetheliving if you want to check them out. I have been friends with them since forever, they are the best guys ever, and well...it just makes me so proud to see them succeed.
Adios for now, have to catch up on some reading before I watch the badgers kick some butt on Texas A&M...next post won't take so long...I hope...
Later dudes,
Lex
Friday, March 16, 2007
Sunday, February 25, 2007
a sunday morning
Wow...the snow. We have had so much snow the past two days....blizzard warnings and all. Last night the weather channel was saying that if we went outside we would be risking our lives. Still I saw many Madison kids getting out for a fun saturday night of drinking and partying. Alot of us grew up in Wisconsin...this whole snow thing is nothing new. Me and some friends actually had a snowball fight for a while...I got hit alot and tackled three times. Not fair. I don't do well with cold very long so I went in early but the others stayed. Those crazy kids. And talk about crazy...it was also thundering and lightning out. That was somthing I am not used to---snow falling, wind blowing, and a thunderstorm.
The weather has brought some good news though. Last night and this afternoon my work was canceled so I have gotten quality time to do the homework I desperately needed. Friday I worked 10.5 hours so atleast my next paycheck won't be zero. I have a presentation tomorrow and a exam on tuesday so I am kind of stressing---tomorrow will be worse. One class of mine is canceled all week though so that is a happy thought.
I am going home on thursday instead of to the waterpark condo my family rented. After last weekend I just want the comfort of home...but who knows if that will come. I am going to be staying at my dad's house for the first time since he moved in with his girlfriend. I was adament that I wouldn't stay there ever earlier in the year...but I am going to give it a chance. I need to go home and just get away. I am going to replace a thursday night of vodka and partying with a thursday night of chinese buffet and retail therepy that my dad always provides. Our local mall has gotten a bunch of new stores and I can't wait to start adding to my spring break wardrobe. My mom won't be home to hang out with since she is in Florida with her boyfriend...but me and my dad are always good and doing some damage to our bank accounts when new season of clothing is being released.
The badgers play ohio state today and they better win. Our team is doing so good that they deserve this win. It determines alot of seeding and big ten tournament issues and a win will definatly be to the badgers advantage. I am going to brave the elements and head to a friends to watch the game---dangerous I know but much better then watching alone.
Got to head out...my roommate has something wrong with her eye and needs my help. I love feeling needed. Back to reality.
Later Dudes,
Lex
The weather has brought some good news though. Last night and this afternoon my work was canceled so I have gotten quality time to do the homework I desperately needed. Friday I worked 10.5 hours so atleast my next paycheck won't be zero. I have a presentation tomorrow and a exam on tuesday so I am kind of stressing---tomorrow will be worse. One class of mine is canceled all week though so that is a happy thought.
I am going home on thursday instead of to the waterpark condo my family rented. After last weekend I just want the comfort of home...but who knows if that will come. I am going to be staying at my dad's house for the first time since he moved in with his girlfriend. I was adament that I wouldn't stay there ever earlier in the year...but I am going to give it a chance. I need to go home and just get away. I am going to replace a thursday night of vodka and partying with a thursday night of chinese buffet and retail therepy that my dad always provides. Our local mall has gotten a bunch of new stores and I can't wait to start adding to my spring break wardrobe. My mom won't be home to hang out with since she is in Florida with her boyfriend...but me and my dad are always good and doing some damage to our bank accounts when new season of clothing is being released.
The badgers play ohio state today and they better win. Our team is doing so good that they deserve this win. It determines alot of seeding and big ten tournament issues and a win will definatly be to the badgers advantage. I am going to brave the elements and head to a friends to watch the game---dangerous I know but much better then watching alone.
Got to head out...my roommate has something wrong with her eye and needs my help. I love feeling needed. Back to reality.
Later Dudes,
Lex
a sunday morning
Wow...the snow. We have had so much snow the past two days....blizzard warnings and all. Last night the weather channel was saying that if we went outside we would be risking our lives. Still I saw many Madison kids getting out for a fun saturday night of drinking and partying. Alot of us grew up in Wisconsin...this whole snow thing is nothing new. Me and some friends actually had a snowball fight for a while...I got hit alot and tackled three times. Not fair. I don't do well with cold very long so I went in early but the others stayed. Those crazy kids. And talk about crazy...it was also thundering and lightning out. That was somthing I am not used to---snow falling, wind blowing, and a thunderstorm.
The weather has brought some good news though. Last night and this afternoon my work was canceled so I have gotten quality time to do the homework I desperately needed. Friday I worked 10.5 hours so atleast my next paycheck won't be zero. I have a presentation tomorrow and a exam on tuesday so I am kind of stressing---tomorrow will be worse. One class of mine is canceled all week though so that is a happy thought.
I am going home on thursday instead of to the waterpark condo my family rented. After last weekend I just want the comfort of home...but who knows if that will come. I am going to be staying at my dad's house for the first time since he moved in with his girlfriend. I was adament that I wouldn't stay there ever earlier in the year...but I am going to give it a chance. I need to go home and just get away. I am going to replace a thursday night of vodka and partying with a thursday night of chinese buffet and retail therepy that my dad always provides. Our local mall has gotten a bunch of new stores and I can't wait to start adding to my spring break wardrobe. My mom won't be home to hang out with since she is in Florida with her boyfriend...but me and my dad are always good and doing some damage to our bank accounts when new season of clothing is being released.
The badgers play ohio state today and they better win. Our team is doing so good that they deserve this win. It determines alot of seeding and big ten tournament issues and a win will definatly be to the badgers advantage. I am going to brave the elements and head to a friends to watch the game---dangerous I know but much better then watching alone.
Got to head out...my roommate has something wrong with her eye and needs my help. I love feeling needed. Back to reality.
Later Dudes,
Lex
The weather has brought some good news though. Last night and this afternoon my work was canceled so I have gotten quality time to do the homework I desperately needed. Friday I worked 10.5 hours so atleast my next paycheck won't be zero. I have a presentation tomorrow and a exam on tuesday so I am kind of stressing---tomorrow will be worse. One class of mine is canceled all week though so that is a happy thought.
I am going home on thursday instead of to the waterpark condo my family rented. After last weekend I just want the comfort of home...but who knows if that will come. I am going to be staying at my dad's house for the first time since he moved in with his girlfriend. I was adament that I wouldn't stay there ever earlier in the year...but I am going to give it a chance. I need to go home and just get away. I am going to replace a thursday night of vodka and partying with a thursday night of chinese buffet and retail therepy that my dad always provides. Our local mall has gotten a bunch of new stores and I can't wait to start adding to my spring break wardrobe. My mom won't be home to hang out with since she is in Florida with her boyfriend...but me and my dad are always good and doing some damage to our bank accounts when new season of clothing is being released.
The badgers play ohio state today and they better win. Our team is doing so good that they deserve this win. It determines alot of seeding and big ten tournament issues and a win will definatly be to the badgers advantage. I am going to brave the elements and head to a friends to watch the game---dangerous I know but much better then watching alone.
Got to head out...my roommate has something wrong with her eye and needs my help. I love feeling needed. Back to reality.
Later Dudes,
Lex
Friday, February 23, 2007
a friday afternoon
well it's a friday afternoon of a unknown thursday night. we had a girls night last night since we were all needing to hang out. first kelly and i went to a friend's to watch the last OC ever....semi-sad event but horrible ending...and then we met meghan at home to go out. I had too much at wando's and don't remember part of the night. i hate myself for that.
the scariest thing is not remembering. I just can't stop beating myself up about it all day today. I went to work fine and feel fine physically...but mentally i am so mad at myself. I have do idea why i drank that much. I just don't know...i wasn't sad, happy, or trying to rid myself of problems. i just had too much to drink. And that is not me. Lately when I drink I am either not drunk at all or very drunk. Extremes. I think its because I don't really like drinking. It's not that great, you feel stupid after, and do stupid things (like falling and eating alot of peanut butter) when you are drunk. I would rather hang out and watch a movie or just chat with people. But then if I don't drink I let people down. I let the college stereotype down.
All my friends love going out. They love drinking. And I still want to spend time with them. I want to hang out and I feel like I let them down if I don't drink with them. But if I don't go out with them then I am isolating myself from my friends and I don't want that either. I just really don't like drinking. Weird I know...but it's true. I also hate that right now alot of my stories, alot of all of our stories, start or end with 'I was so drunk' or 'you were so drunk'. I guess I am just ranting because I had a bad night, but i really don't like drinking. I think, well am going to attempt, to stop for a while. In the terms of my dad...it's just not who i am.
I talked with my mom and dad alot today. Told them how i was mad at myself. They thought what i did was dumb but told me to get over it. We make mistakes and then we move on to the next day. I just keep thinking of the stuff i did, the things people saw, that I don't remember. I can't get over that but maybe tomorrow i will.
I miss my parents so much. I miss home so much. All first semester I called Madison my home and barely talked with my parents. We fought alot then. Now we are close and all I want to do is be home. All the time. I feel I have more control of my life at home. School, work, and friends are so stressful sometimes that I feel like I am juggling so many things and they could all drop at any minute. I am a bad juggler to start out with and now there are so many things to be juggled.
Hopefullly spring break will be soon. I can't wait. Kelly and I are going to London to visit Nancy and Anne. We are going to have the best time. I just can't wait. I have never been overseas and with Kelly it will be so much fun. WE are going to have a BLAST. Plus I miss Nancy and Anne so much. Nancy is my restbit and finally I will see her again. It is going to be so great...even if it is not in the sun. Right now my body is not swim suit shape anyway so its okay.
On Tuesday I mailed my internship apllication. LA here I come hopefully. That would be so great if I got it. It would be the start to the rest of my life. It would be what I need. Actually right now I need my mom or my dad. And my mom is going to Florida tomorrow with her boyfriend. My dad is only a phone call away. And he is coming to get me next thursday. I am so in need of family right now.
I love my friends. I love them alot. Kelly, Erin, Nancy, Kevin, and Meghan I don't know what I would do without them. I really don't. But right now I don't know what's going on. I feel so 'not in control' and hate it. I just want to go back to normal--back home. That is why I need my family. I can't wait until thursday.
Wow...very venting and ambigous blog for today. Sorry had some stuff I had to get off my chest. But I am glad I did it cause I feel a little better. At least someone knows how I feel now.
Later dudes,
Lex
the scariest thing is not remembering. I just can't stop beating myself up about it all day today. I went to work fine and feel fine physically...but mentally i am so mad at myself. I have do idea why i drank that much. I just don't know...i wasn't sad, happy, or trying to rid myself of problems. i just had too much to drink. And that is not me. Lately when I drink I am either not drunk at all or very drunk. Extremes. I think its because I don't really like drinking. It's not that great, you feel stupid after, and do stupid things (like falling and eating alot of peanut butter) when you are drunk. I would rather hang out and watch a movie or just chat with people. But then if I don't drink I let people down. I let the college stereotype down.
All my friends love going out. They love drinking. And I still want to spend time with them. I want to hang out and I feel like I let them down if I don't drink with them. But if I don't go out with them then I am isolating myself from my friends and I don't want that either. I just really don't like drinking. Weird I know...but it's true. I also hate that right now alot of my stories, alot of all of our stories, start or end with 'I was so drunk' or 'you were so drunk'. I guess I am just ranting because I had a bad night, but i really don't like drinking. I think, well am going to attempt, to stop for a while. In the terms of my dad...it's just not who i am.
I talked with my mom and dad alot today. Told them how i was mad at myself. They thought what i did was dumb but told me to get over it. We make mistakes and then we move on to the next day. I just keep thinking of the stuff i did, the things people saw, that I don't remember. I can't get over that but maybe tomorrow i will.
I miss my parents so much. I miss home so much. All first semester I called Madison my home and barely talked with my parents. We fought alot then. Now we are close and all I want to do is be home. All the time. I feel I have more control of my life at home. School, work, and friends are so stressful sometimes that I feel like I am juggling so many things and they could all drop at any minute. I am a bad juggler to start out with and now there are so many things to be juggled.
Hopefullly spring break will be soon. I can't wait. Kelly and I are going to London to visit Nancy and Anne. We are going to have the best time. I just can't wait. I have never been overseas and with Kelly it will be so much fun. WE are going to have a BLAST. Plus I miss Nancy and Anne so much. Nancy is my restbit and finally I will see her again. It is going to be so great...even if it is not in the sun. Right now my body is not swim suit shape anyway so its okay.
On Tuesday I mailed my internship apllication. LA here I come hopefully. That would be so great if I got it. It would be the start to the rest of my life. It would be what I need. Actually right now I need my mom or my dad. And my mom is going to Florida tomorrow with her boyfriend. My dad is only a phone call away. And he is coming to get me next thursday. I am so in need of family right now.
I love my friends. I love them alot. Kelly, Erin, Nancy, Kevin, and Meghan I don't know what I would do without them. I really don't. But right now I don't know what's going on. I feel so 'not in control' and hate it. I just want to go back to normal--back home. That is why I need my family. I can't wait until thursday.
Wow...very venting and ambigous blog for today. Sorry had some stuff I had to get off my chest. But I am glad I did it cause I feel a little better. At least someone knows how I feel now.
Later dudes,
Lex
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
a wednesday night
Hey there....happy valentine's day.
Yes, it has been better then last year...I know everyone was wondering. I had a really cute outfit today and gave away candy and valentine's to my friends. It's funny though because I bought a box of 32 superman valentine's from wal-mart and expected that I would give them all away because I always did in grade school. Writing them up last night I still have about half left...and that is counting sending my dad, sister, and mom ones in the mail. I guess college just brings less friends...but better ones?
I am still getting over my loss of a psuedo-family member. I am doing better today then yesterday...and each day will get better. I am thinking about him and the dinner table less then before. In any other context that sentence would be really weird but for right now I know what I am saying.
Today I actually got my homework done early, worked, and watched the badger basketball game. I am finally feeling caught up with school for the first time this semester and work is going well too. I am learning to prioritize my time well...or maybe because it's so cold out I have no motivation to go anywhere and procrastinate so homework/work indoors is the only options until temps rise above freezing.
I just gave one of my best friends his valentine's day present and he loved it. I feel special because both friends that recieved gifts loved them and my dad, sister, and mom liked what I sent them. Right now things are good.
I am going to let you go since well...I want to go do something fun. I guess motivation hasn't escaped me even if it is negative degrees.
Peace Out, Lex
Yes, it has been better then last year...I know everyone was wondering. I had a really cute outfit today and gave away candy and valentine's to my friends. It's funny though because I bought a box of 32 superman valentine's from wal-mart and expected that I would give them all away because I always did in grade school. Writing them up last night I still have about half left...and that is counting sending my dad, sister, and mom ones in the mail. I guess college just brings less friends...but better ones?
I am still getting over my loss of a psuedo-family member. I am doing better today then yesterday...and each day will get better. I am thinking about him and the dinner table less then before. In any other context that sentence would be really weird but for right now I know what I am saying.
Today I actually got my homework done early, worked, and watched the badger basketball game. I am finally feeling caught up with school for the first time this semester and work is going well too. I am learning to prioritize my time well...or maybe because it's so cold out I have no motivation to go anywhere and procrastinate so homework/work indoors is the only options until temps rise above freezing.
I just gave one of my best friends his valentine's day present and he loved it. I feel special because both friends that recieved gifts loved them and my dad, sister, and mom liked what I sent them. Right now things are good.
I am going to let you go since well...I want to go do something fun. I guess motivation hasn't escaped me even if it is negative degrees.
Peace Out, Lex
Monday, February 12, 2007
a monday night
So it's late Monday night and what a Monday it has been. Today my life took a shift and made me experience something that I never really had to before. And no it had nothing to do with having 6 classes in a row (which...even though popular belief thinks is alot it's really no more then high-school)
So I was in passing between my 11:50 end and 12:05 start to another class when my mother decides to call me. Usually I don't answer but this time I decided to let her interrupt my quick lunch of a turkey-pickle-spinach wrap. She had some news for me. It seemed my ex-step-brother had died. Yes, a boy that I had grew up with but never really gotten along with had passed away. I hung up shocked. I hadn't seen him in probably three years but still considered him my step-brother. We never got along, he was really mean to my mother in his teen years, and a drag on society by being a high-school dropout but he was still family; and he was family that was dead. Alot of my childhood memories involve him and it is so werid to think that this twenty-five year old man was gone just like that.
At the moment I am not sure what to feel. I know I feel a loss. I know I feel sad. But they are conflicting because of the experiences I had with him later in life. I know the good and bad of him; we constantly butted heads about our personality differences. He especially did not get along with my mother and I feel now that if I am sad then I am not showing allegence to my mom. Yet, she keeps calling me and telling me how hard it is for her to deal with because it was like loosing family for her as well no matter if they had a hard time getting along. No one has put any of these 'betraying my mother' thoughts in my head besides myself. Everyone on my side of the family is taking it as a shock and loss since they saw the boy grow up. It is just so hard to deal with loss. It is even harder to deal with then loosing my grandfather junior year of high-school because I knew it was sad to see him go. It was from cancer so I was prepared for the upcoming loss. With this I was not even sure how I felt about my step-brother in the first place--and now his death is making me think about all our interactions.
All I keep imagining is the dinner table. There were six people in our family and everyone had assigned seats. He always sat one to the left and across the table from me. No matter who was present for meals or whatever was done at the table we always sat in our spots. 1, 2, 3 or all 6 of us could be eating, playing cards, or doing homework and we would still revert back to our specific spots. I just keep picturing me in my spot and him in his spot eating dinner like we did for almost ten years. And I have no idea why I keep focusing on that...how weird.
Other then that I have been pretty good this past weekend. After my friday night of pig-out and early sleep I worked all day saturday and napped when I didn't. We went out to the bars that night and unexpectedly I had a great time. I have been so anti-social lately that I thought it was going to be boring when it really wasn't. Some drama happened that night but it hasn't been mentioned since. Kinda like a pink elephant in the room.
So now the rest of the week is on hand and that entails a Valentine's day with no plans. But as told to you earlier--no plans is still better then last year. Maybe, just maybe, a surprise will happen but I am not holding my breath. Oh man...I should not joke about loosing breath when a family member (or ex-family member?) just died. You all know what I mean though.
Hope all is going well and I just want to give a shout-out to my friend alissa...she turned twenty today. Welcome to the real world girl...you are no longer a teen.
Later dudes...Lex
So I was in passing between my 11:50 end and 12:05 start to another class when my mother decides to call me. Usually I don't answer but this time I decided to let her interrupt my quick lunch of a turkey-pickle-spinach wrap. She had some news for me. It seemed my ex-step-brother had died. Yes, a boy that I had grew up with but never really gotten along with had passed away. I hung up shocked. I hadn't seen him in probably three years but still considered him my step-brother. We never got along, he was really mean to my mother in his teen years, and a drag on society by being a high-school dropout but he was still family; and he was family that was dead. Alot of my childhood memories involve him and it is so werid to think that this twenty-five year old man was gone just like that.
At the moment I am not sure what to feel. I know I feel a loss. I know I feel sad. But they are conflicting because of the experiences I had with him later in life. I know the good and bad of him; we constantly butted heads about our personality differences. He especially did not get along with my mother and I feel now that if I am sad then I am not showing allegence to my mom. Yet, she keeps calling me and telling me how hard it is for her to deal with because it was like loosing family for her as well no matter if they had a hard time getting along. No one has put any of these 'betraying my mother' thoughts in my head besides myself. Everyone on my side of the family is taking it as a shock and loss since they saw the boy grow up. It is just so hard to deal with loss. It is even harder to deal with then loosing my grandfather junior year of high-school because I knew it was sad to see him go. It was from cancer so I was prepared for the upcoming loss. With this I was not even sure how I felt about my step-brother in the first place--and now his death is making me think about all our interactions.
All I keep imagining is the dinner table. There were six people in our family and everyone had assigned seats. He always sat one to the left and across the table from me. No matter who was present for meals or whatever was done at the table we always sat in our spots. 1, 2, 3 or all 6 of us could be eating, playing cards, or doing homework and we would still revert back to our specific spots. I just keep picturing me in my spot and him in his spot eating dinner like we did for almost ten years. And I have no idea why I keep focusing on that...how weird.
Other then that I have been pretty good this past weekend. After my friday night of pig-out and early sleep I worked all day saturday and napped when I didn't. We went out to the bars that night and unexpectedly I had a great time. I have been so anti-social lately that I thought it was going to be boring when it really wasn't. Some drama happened that night but it hasn't been mentioned since. Kinda like a pink elephant in the room.
So now the rest of the week is on hand and that entails a Valentine's day with no plans. But as told to you earlier--no plans is still better then last year. Maybe, just maybe, a surprise will happen but I am not holding my breath. Oh man...I should not joke about loosing breath when a family member (or ex-family member?) just died. You all know what I mean though.
Hope all is going well and I just want to give a shout-out to my friend alissa...she turned twenty today. Welcome to the real world girl...you are no longer a teen.
Later dudes...Lex
Friday, February 9, 2007
a friday night....late
When i say 'late' in that title I really mean 10:39pm which for me today is late. I didn't mean to but I got bored before and pigged out on crackers and peanut butter and now with all the excess carbs I am getting sleepy. It will soon be the end to a busy and weird day.
No class today...it's friday--do you honestly think that i would plan a class of friday if I didn't have to? Well, if you discount last year, then no...i wouldn't. But I did have to work at 9am-11am writing movie labels on tapes. Oh the life of working for the football team. My boss chose me to do it because i have pretty handwriting. I guess that made me feel special...and hey, it was early.
Then I came home and had lunch...one that I had packed thinking I would have to work later. It was good but kind of weird eating a bagged lunch at your own house. Try it sometime and get back to me. Whatever you do---don't put your turkey and spinach wrap in the microwave for too long unless you want really rubbery deli turkey.
After, I worked again...this time technical directing the women's hockey game. I messed up alot and also found out I am semi am friends with a bucky mascot. Well the guy who dresses up as bucky. What a revelation since I am deathly afraid of mascots. As in nervous breakdown, crying, and hovering in a corner afraid of mascots. All afternoon and night I have been weirded out that I actually have conversed with someone inside those horrid suits and will soon have to converse with them again. It is probably a very nice person and all I will want to do is run away in fear....
I became an aunt again yesterday. My sister and her boyfriend got thier second puppy. Another boston terrier---but this one has brown stripes---very uncommon. I can't wait to get pictures. These dogs are as close to grandkids that my parents will get because me and my sister both decided early on that we will not be bearing children. Who wants to gain that much weight for no reason? I know it sounds bad but pregnancy just brings unwanted pain and pounds that neither of us want to experience. Also, I am not the most motherly person...I can barely take care of myself. If you call working 30+ hours a week while taking 18 credits and recovering from surgery even 'taking care' of myself.
Tomorrow will bring another start...and hopefully a new begining without peanut butter for a while. It sure is a tasty treat but I feel so guilty after since it's not really great for people. Also, I have to work basketball practice in the morning and men's hockey at night. Guess my afternoon will be free...
The girls are going out tomorrow. I can't wait to be social again but really have no desire to drink. I don't understand this since when you turn 21 you are supposed to get wasted every night...i just keep wanting to stay in and sleep. I guess i am turning 82 instead of 22 in september. Remember its not even 11pm on a friday and I am thinking about bed. Which is now my destination. Peace out for now and sweet dreams all.
-lex
No class today...it's friday--do you honestly think that i would plan a class of friday if I didn't have to? Well, if you discount last year, then no...i wouldn't. But I did have to work at 9am-11am writing movie labels on tapes. Oh the life of working for the football team. My boss chose me to do it because i have pretty handwriting. I guess that made me feel special...and hey, it was early.
Then I came home and had lunch...one that I had packed thinking I would have to work later. It was good but kind of weird eating a bagged lunch at your own house. Try it sometime and get back to me. Whatever you do---don't put your turkey and spinach wrap in the microwave for too long unless you want really rubbery deli turkey.
After, I worked again...this time technical directing the women's hockey game. I messed up alot and also found out I am semi am friends with a bucky mascot. Well the guy who dresses up as bucky. What a revelation since I am deathly afraid of mascots. As in nervous breakdown, crying, and hovering in a corner afraid of mascots. All afternoon and night I have been weirded out that I actually have conversed with someone inside those horrid suits and will soon have to converse with them again. It is probably a very nice person and all I will want to do is run away in fear....
I became an aunt again yesterday. My sister and her boyfriend got thier second puppy. Another boston terrier---but this one has brown stripes---very uncommon. I can't wait to get pictures. These dogs are as close to grandkids that my parents will get because me and my sister both decided early on that we will not be bearing children. Who wants to gain that much weight for no reason? I know it sounds bad but pregnancy just brings unwanted pain and pounds that neither of us want to experience. Also, I am not the most motherly person...I can barely take care of myself. If you call working 30+ hours a week while taking 18 credits and recovering from surgery even 'taking care' of myself.
Tomorrow will bring another start...and hopefully a new begining without peanut butter for a while. It sure is a tasty treat but I feel so guilty after since it's not really great for people. Also, I have to work basketball practice in the morning and men's hockey at night. Guess my afternoon will be free...
The girls are going out tomorrow. I can't wait to be social again but really have no desire to drink. I don't understand this since when you turn 21 you are supposed to get wasted every night...i just keep wanting to stay in and sleep. I guess i am turning 82 instead of 22 in september. Remember its not even 11pm on a friday and I am thinking about bed. Which is now my destination. Peace out for now and sweet dreams all.
-lex
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